By Yessica Ceja
A hopeless romantic, that's something the people around me would definitely agree on about me. For as long as I can remember I've always let myself become very infatuated with boys very easily and I say infatuated because never before did I feel the way I did this time.
For once I finally had someone I could talk to for hours, I had someone that understood my humor, I had someone that made me feel safe even though I had barely met him. Surprisingly though, this didn’t last long and eventually there was “a better suitor,” in his opinion anyways.
Yes, I understand that may sound a little cocky, but that's the point. Before this my self esteem already wasn’t doing so well, so you can imagine how bad it was. I would constantly compare myself to her thinking “oh if i was skinnier he would have stayed” or “If I were skinny he wouldn’t have left”.
After a couple of weeks thinking these things I realized that im not going to change myself for him and he was gone with no return in sight either way. Following this realization I did the most I could raise my self esteem even higher than it was before and to make myself a better person for myself. For example every time a negative thought about myself popped into my head id find a way to turn it into a positive thought
At this point it’s been a while and I have been able to think better thoughts about myself and I have realized that if it wasn’t meant to be it just wasn’t meant to be and there is no use fighting it. The main thing I learned was that no matter how others view you or how they think about you, you are and will always be enough.
A hopeless romantic, that's something the people around me would definitely agree on about me. For as long as I can remember I've always let myself become very infatuated with boys very easily and I say infatuated because never before did I feel the way I did this time.
For once I finally had someone I could talk to for hours, I had someone that understood my humor, I had someone that made me feel safe even though I had barely met him. Surprisingly though, this didn’t last long and eventually there was “a better suitor,” in his opinion anyways.
Yes, I understand that may sound a little cocky, but that's the point. Before this my self esteem already wasn’t doing so well, so you can imagine how bad it was. I would constantly compare myself to her thinking “oh if i was skinnier he would have stayed” or “If I were skinny he wouldn’t have left”.
After a couple of weeks thinking these things I realized that im not going to change myself for him and he was gone with no return in sight either way. Following this realization I did the most I could raise my self esteem even higher than it was before and to make myself a better person for myself. For example every time a negative thought about myself popped into my head id find a way to turn it into a positive thought
At this point it’s been a while and I have been able to think better thoughts about myself and I have realized that if it wasn’t meant to be it just wasn’t meant to be and there is no use fighting it. The main thing I learned was that no matter how others view you or how they think about you, you are and will always be enough.