By Leslie Carrillo
As you grow up you get into many relationships some may have deep feelings and some are just pointless. In those deep feeling relationships, it may come to an end and it affects you so much you start hurting really bad.
Well, that's the situation im in right now. My ex-boyfriend meant so much to me and I was so deeply in love that I thought we would last forever. Yeah, the word “love” is a strong word but it's true, I have never felt this way towards someone.
This break up has been the hardest for me especially since after the break-up things started going downhill for me in my personal life. It came to the point where I started to change as a person not caring about my grades, going late to class, and even skipping class.
Everyone tells me to not let this break up affect me but at the end of the day, it does affect me because I fell for this guy so hard that I feared to lose him. Yet, that happened; I lost him. Losing the person you thought you would last for the rest of your life hurts so much.
People tell you that you will get through it but will you? I feel like I won't because I have been sad and crying in the past month. Recently I started having panic attacks that get triggered by thinking of him or sometimes seeing him.
Having these panic attacks are scary, but that's why you have friends for right? Well my friends are there for me, especially my two closest friends. They make sure to be there for me even if they aren't by my side by texting me and checking up to see how I am doing.
We may have ended on good terms and stayed as friends but it isn't the same. At times I wish this was a dream or that it hadn't ever happened because I didn't just love him he made me become a better version of myself. While I was with him, he made me a better person making sure I was focusing in school, he showed me to love myself, and made sure I didn't do anything bad to ruin my life.
The thing that sucks the most was that he was also my best friend and I could always count on him for advice or for him to hear me out when I needed someone to talk to. Now I can’t talk to him because I’m not a priority anymore, so when I want to talk to him I can't.
I would have never thought I would love someone this much that losing him would hurt me so bad. It sucks especially when memories pop up in your head and you can’t even do anything besides accept the fact that it has come to an end.
It may hurt knowing I lost the person I truly love but I have to push through because I can't be this sad person forever. I can't let this ruin me it will take time to get over it, but right now I need to prioritize myself and focus on myself even if it takes time.
As you grow up you get into many relationships some may have deep feelings and some are just pointless. In those deep feeling relationships, it may come to an end and it affects you so much you start hurting really bad.
Well, that's the situation im in right now. My ex-boyfriend meant so much to me and I was so deeply in love that I thought we would last forever. Yeah, the word “love” is a strong word but it's true, I have never felt this way towards someone.
This break up has been the hardest for me especially since after the break-up things started going downhill for me in my personal life. It came to the point where I started to change as a person not caring about my grades, going late to class, and even skipping class.
Everyone tells me to not let this break up affect me but at the end of the day, it does affect me because I fell for this guy so hard that I feared to lose him. Yet, that happened; I lost him. Losing the person you thought you would last for the rest of your life hurts so much.
People tell you that you will get through it but will you? I feel like I won't because I have been sad and crying in the past month. Recently I started having panic attacks that get triggered by thinking of him or sometimes seeing him.
Having these panic attacks are scary, but that's why you have friends for right? Well my friends are there for me, especially my two closest friends. They make sure to be there for me even if they aren't by my side by texting me and checking up to see how I am doing.
We may have ended on good terms and stayed as friends but it isn't the same. At times I wish this was a dream or that it hadn't ever happened because I didn't just love him he made me become a better version of myself. While I was with him, he made me a better person making sure I was focusing in school, he showed me to love myself, and made sure I didn't do anything bad to ruin my life.
The thing that sucks the most was that he was also my best friend and I could always count on him for advice or for him to hear me out when I needed someone to talk to. Now I can’t talk to him because I’m not a priority anymore, so when I want to talk to him I can't.
I would have never thought I would love someone this much that losing him would hurt me so bad. It sucks especially when memories pop up in your head and you can’t even do anything besides accept the fact that it has come to an end.
It may hurt knowing I lost the person I truly love but I have to push through because I can't be this sad person forever. I can't let this ruin me it will take time to get over it, but right now I need to prioritize myself and focus on myself even if it takes time.