by Jacqueline Sumano
Am I beautiful? Is my body good looking? Do you really think I’m beautiful or are you just saying that so you won’t hurt my feelings? These are the questions I always ask myself, the questions that make me think twice about my beauty, the questions that stop me from loving myself.
Throughout many years of my life, I have experienced so much negativity towards myself. I would let people tell me that I was ugly because I thought it was the truth. I remember back in 6th grade when I was the new girl, everybody looked at me in a way that I knew they were talking bad about me. I would get bullied by the students there; they would laugh and whisper to each other in front of me.
People would tell me, “You’re ugly, you’re never going to be pretty!” All those words said to me by others would hurt me so much; it felt like I got stabbed in the guts.
Even my own family makes fun of my body. They tell me that I’m fat and that I will never find someone who will like me. Hearing those comments from the people that I love destroys my heart.
When someone would tell me that I’m beautiful I would immediately think they were lying to me.
All that led me to not look at myself in the mirror, I would always tell myself that I was ugly and that I would never be beautiful.
When people look at me, the first thing they notice is my body. Okay, I’m not skinny, so what?
I may not have perfect teeth, but hey, I have braces now and I can’t wait for that beautiful smile I would always dream of. But what if I didn’t have braces? One, I wouldn’t give a damn. Two, It’s not the end of the world. Three, I’d still be happy no matter what.
I have gained all my confidence from many people, such as my friend Eduardo. He would always remind me of how beautiful I am, and that I shouldn’t let anyone’s opinion hurt me. All that said from him and others would fill up my heart with happiness. My friends would tell me that I’m a very strong women and that I shouldn’t let anything get into my way from loving myself.
I was then able to understand that it takes a while to find your beauty. I now look in the mirror and tell myself, “You’re beautiful no matter what people tell you. You will never let someone bring you down just because they tell you that you’re ugly.”
To this day, I smile every time I look at myself in the mirror.
Throughout many years of my life, I have experienced so much negativity towards myself. I would let people tell me that I was ugly because I thought it was the truth. I remember back in 6th grade when I was the new girl, everybody looked at me in a way that I knew they were talking bad about me. I would get bullied by the students there; they would laugh and whisper to each other in front of me.
People would tell me, “You’re ugly, you’re never going to be pretty!” All those words said to me by others would hurt me so much; it felt like I got stabbed in the guts.
Even my own family makes fun of my body. They tell me that I’m fat and that I will never find someone who will like me. Hearing those comments from the people that I love destroys my heart.
When someone would tell me that I’m beautiful I would immediately think they were lying to me.
All that led me to not look at myself in the mirror, I would always tell myself that I was ugly and that I would never be beautiful.
When people look at me, the first thing they notice is my body. Okay, I’m not skinny, so what?
I may not have perfect teeth, but hey, I have braces now and I can’t wait for that beautiful smile I would always dream of. But what if I didn’t have braces? One, I wouldn’t give a damn. Two, It’s not the end of the world. Three, I’d still be happy no matter what.
I have gained all my confidence from many people, such as my friend Eduardo. He would always remind me of how beautiful I am, and that I shouldn’t let anyone’s opinion hurt me. All that said from him and others would fill up my heart with happiness. My friends would tell me that I’m a very strong women and that I shouldn’t let anything get into my way from loving myself.
I was then able to understand that it takes a while to find your beauty. I now look in the mirror and tell myself, “You’re beautiful no matter what people tell you. You will never let someone bring you down just because they tell you that you’re ugly.”
To this day, I smile every time I look at myself in the mirror.