By April Mendez
I have dealt with many insecurities about myself for a long time now, such as my weight and anxiety.
When others would make comments about my weight in middle and elementary school, that caused me to be insecure. Some of the comments that were made were how skinnier I was compared to other girls by boys at school.
I’ve always felt like other girls who have a “normal” body was prettier than me. For years, I never had anyone to talk to about any personal problems I had, so I kept to myself all those years.
People would ask me things like “Do you ever eat?” or just give me really weird and judgmental looks.
I still struggle with comparing myself to those with prettier bodies, but at the end of the day, I know I have a good personality and treat everyone with kindness and love.
My hope is always that people will accept me and not just go straight to judging me.
My anxiety holds a toll on me because it basically controls me and never goes away, which is a huge struggle for me every single day. I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember.
I started receiving panic attacks at the age of 9 and at the time, I didn’t know the meaning behind them.
I thought I had asthma because whenever I had a panic attack, I felt like I couldn't breathe, which I still struggle with a lot to this day.
However, what cancels out my insecurities is when I devote my time to doing my makeup or spending time with those who are close to me.
When I do my makeup, I know I’m truly being myself because I do it how I want to. Even though I do my makeup differently than others, I still love it because it’s completely me. I enjoy being different and I'm not ashamed of it.
Getting time to spend with my family is very important to me, but the person I'm closest to is my cousin. She understands me in ways many people don’t and is very accepting.
I’m also very close to her husband, we’ve been close ever since they started dating in high school. He is extremely close to our family, which makes me happy.
My cousin also struggles with anxiety and she is always there for me on my worst days, so I really don’t know what I would do without her.
Over the past few years, we got closer than ever. We both faced very difficult situations over the past 3 years, those events seemed to make us closer.
Despite the long distance between my older brother and I, he still manages to still be there for me through it all. I still have my insecurities, but finding ways to cope with them make it a little better.
I have dealt with many insecurities about myself for a long time now, such as my weight and anxiety.
When others would make comments about my weight in middle and elementary school, that caused me to be insecure. Some of the comments that were made were how skinnier I was compared to other girls by boys at school.
I’ve always felt like other girls who have a “normal” body was prettier than me. For years, I never had anyone to talk to about any personal problems I had, so I kept to myself all those years.
People would ask me things like “Do you ever eat?” or just give me really weird and judgmental looks.
I still struggle with comparing myself to those with prettier bodies, but at the end of the day, I know I have a good personality and treat everyone with kindness and love.
My hope is always that people will accept me and not just go straight to judging me.
My anxiety holds a toll on me because it basically controls me and never goes away, which is a huge struggle for me every single day. I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember.
I started receiving panic attacks at the age of 9 and at the time, I didn’t know the meaning behind them.
I thought I had asthma because whenever I had a panic attack, I felt like I couldn't breathe, which I still struggle with a lot to this day.
However, what cancels out my insecurities is when I devote my time to doing my makeup or spending time with those who are close to me.
When I do my makeup, I know I’m truly being myself because I do it how I want to. Even though I do my makeup differently than others, I still love it because it’s completely me. I enjoy being different and I'm not ashamed of it.
Getting time to spend with my family is very important to me, but the person I'm closest to is my cousin. She understands me in ways many people don’t and is very accepting.
I’m also very close to her husband, we’ve been close ever since they started dating in high school. He is extremely close to our family, which makes me happy.
My cousin also struggles with anxiety and she is always there for me on my worst days, so I really don’t know what I would do without her.
Over the past few years, we got closer than ever. We both faced very difficult situations over the past 3 years, those events seemed to make us closer.
Despite the long distance between my older brother and I, he still manages to still be there for me through it all. I still have my insecurities, but finding ways to cope with them make it a little better.